June 12, 2019
Let’s just get this out there… this is a post I can guarantee you’ve never seen anything like from me before. That’s because I’m *trying new things.* Okay, okay, I know that lots of people try lots of new things all the time, but for me that’s just not my norm. As I explore the world and try to discover what I like as an adult I’ve decided to give myself permission to try new things! I hear so often “I don’t know who I am” from my friends. I get that because I’ve felt it. But I’ve been thinking that maybe I don’t know “who I am” because I haven’t taken time to explore and listen to myself. Welp. It’s time to start.
What I learned from this experience Kayaking was that trying new things takes courage. I know I didn’t start by white water rafting, but I definitely felt some fear as I got into the Kayak. Our sweet instructor Mary told me not to worry and that it’s incredibly hard to flip over a kayak. But that didn’t reallllyyyyy make me feel better. Y’all. Kayaks are just little tiny boats and they definitely rock with the water. I felt the kayak rock. I wasn’t sure how to keep my balance. I was scared. Swim team in middle school was a long time ago, and you can’t see what’s in the water on the bay! But Mary was right. I didn’t fall in! And by the end of our lesson I was downright having fun!
Once I overcame my fear, which my husband for sure didn’t share, I was able to enjoy this date with him! We laughed A LOT like more than we’d laughed the whole weekend. Big belly laughs that made the kayaks rock a little too much. We laughed at the jumping fish that splashed the water. We laughed at how slow I paddled the kayak. We laughed at the fact that I kept running into our sweet instructor. We laughed at me learning to turn. And that was a leaning experience too! I’m so used to being embarrassed or flustered when I’m not naturally gifted. So when I laughed at myself over something so silly and simple felt like I was just letting go.
And I was only a little salty (get it 😂) that JT was “a natural” and I definitely was not 🙈